I'm sure you know how I feel. And I'm sure you knw how to make me feel better!!! ^ ^ Mere words can't convey the volcano of emotions, yet just talking to you brings a smile to my face (: I wish I had another chance at this, I wish everything was fine. I want a TIME MACHINEEE to rewind time, and perhaps, in retrospect, I would have done something different. Something that would have blown you off of your feet the first time we met. That said, what's passed is part of the past. So many songs encapsulate the feelings, the myriad of emotions I undergo, and that just reaffirms me, and says, hey! You're not the only one going through such thoughts. I'm glad to know you, and I know that even if my efforts are futile, we will always remain as friends.

Miley Cyrus's 7 things is one such example:

The 7 things I like about you
Your hair :DD , your eyes (: , your old Levi’s
When we kiss I’m hypnotized
You make me laugh, you make me cry (You've made me do both already! :/)


I can honestly say,
You've been on my mind since I woke up today
I look at your photograph all the time
These memories come back to life
And I don't mind

I remember when we kissed
I still feel it on my lips
The time that you danced with me
With no music playin'
I remember the simple things
I remember till I cry
But the one thing I wish I'd forget
The memory I wanna forget
Is goodbye

I TOTALLY WANNA FORGET THAT WORD.

I woke up this morning and played our song (played our song more than once)
And through my tears I sang along
I picked up the phone and then put it down
cause I know I'm wasting my time
And I don't mind

I remember when we kissed
I still feel it on my lips
The time that you danced with me
With no music playing
I remember those simple things
I remember till I cry
But the one thing I wish I'd forget
The memory I wanna forget


<---------Will you ever do this? I'm just hopingggg---------->
Suddenly my cell phone's blowing up with your ringtone
I hesitate but answer it any way
You sound so alone
And I'm surprised to hear you say

You remember when we kissed
You still feel it on your lips
The time that you danced with me
With no music playing

You remember those simple things
We talked till we cried
You said that your biggest regret
The one thing you wish I'd forget
Is saying goodbye

Saying goodbye
Ooh
Goodbye


I wish I could put all this behind me. I wish Goodbye never existed.

Hockey training today was fun, but I screwed up quite a bit. Super rusty, this is like my first time picking up my stick since ageeeessss ago. And i realised my stamina has really dropped ALOT. My dad bought me my road bikeee though!!! Super awesome. Now can race around with darren, thomas, GPS and co. (: Which reminds me, I will need to get my stuff that they owe me! Haha wonder how they forgot to attach those parts i specifically mentioned. Luckily the shop is nearby though! :D Oh yes, and HAPPPY BIRTHDAY FIONA!! I think my IG days in CJ were amazing, probably the best IG's one could ever wish for. Seriously. I think there's gnna be another one coming up, so i really really can't wait for it!

Labels: Cant we put the past behind and start anew

So, the day everyone has been anticipating has arrived. Some happy moments, some sad moments. Which of course, in the harsh world we live in, is inevitable. But instead of just saying, tough luck, try again next time, i guess this is where the beauty of human nature takes root. Where we stand by those who have failed to get across these obstacles, stumbled. Offer them comfort and shelter as they come to terms with it. And that's where friendships come in, where friends stand by through each other through thick and thin. Of course, i mean true friends. Not just superficial ones, or those "hi bye" kinda friends. Really true friends who you know you can trust. And its through obstacles such as these that the best of human nature is brought out.

I was pleasantly surprised with my results, especially after moderation. There seemed to be rather heavy moderation, looking at how my grades turned out.

Economics--A
General Paper--B
History--C
Literature--C
Mathematics--D (Jumped 2 grades due to moderation!!)
Current Affairs--A (Don't ask me how i did this haha)
Chinese Language--C (De-proved by 1 grade from mid year)

Otherwise, I think most of my subjects, apart from chinese, did show considerable improvement. However, there's still much to be worked on. A levels will be here in 40 or so weeks I believe, and I'm not inclined to sit back and rest on my laurels. It will be onwards from here, improving particularly in Mathematics and Literature, my 2 weakest subjects. Looks like my holidays will be jam-packed with Math tuition, but at least the class is fun and I'm blending in slowly. I must say, studying math in a group can be interesting at times... :D

Went to take a look at road bikes later on. Having already registered for OCBC Cycle Singapore 2010, it's about time i got a proper road bike. However, the prices were rather steep. The current 2 models i am considering are 3.6k and 4.3k respectively. Very tempting, but the price is a rather put-off. The cheapest one the shop had was 2.4k, but taking into account the top-of-the-range parts that are included in the bicycle, I guess it balances out. Still, I don't think I'm about to just splash out 4000 bucks on a bike. Going to have to consider it very, very carefully. I guess the bicycle will be my reward for promoting. :p
Heard Daryl is getting a MAC! haha. If not for my bike, I would have probably wanted to get a computer or something. Oh well. I'm off to do MATH now! Horrible horrible, but needless to say, a lot of effort needs to be put into it in order to achieve the results i want.

I'd buy that everyday, just to see the smile on your face...

Labels: Your Guardian Angel

"I" and "U" are positive integers, where I is less than 3 times of U. " I ♥ U " =)

Never again will i allow myself to be hurt so badly. Never again will i plunge so deep, with no means of recourse to get out of it.
"Na de qi, fang de xia". That's something i will try to live by. I've been trying my utmost to escape all this turmoil. It just isn't enough. The wave catches me and pushes me under once again. I think of all the things i did, futile. Why was I so stupid, to do so much, yet get nothing in return. I deceived myself, thinking that by doing this and that, it would help. It didn't. It failed. My actions led to consequences, perhaps unwanted ones. My fault probably. I'm hurt now, and that's all i have got left to live with. Maybe someday, the person who was right for me will come. But for now, I look down at my fingers, see the spaces between them, and how your fingers fit so nicely between those spaces. And i miss those times, miss your warm touch, your smile, everything I do makes me think of you again.

It's never easy to let go. Which is why, i never want to endure such pain again. No way. Not now at least. Wait for a few months, and by that time, it'd be A levels all the way. Hardcore mugging. No time to think about all this, and I know i can't let myself get distracted for such a major examination. Time flies so fast. This situation will be at the back of my mind before long, and i await the day i can recall it, but not recall the feelings, the hurt and pain and suffering associated with it. Just remember that once upon a time, you were there in my life. But now you are gone.

I foolishly hope for a change of heart, perhaps for those feelings to rekindle. But that is simply wishful thinking. Pure naive-ness. Told you I'm new to all this shit. And that's the way a heart breaks.

Went out to celebrate Daryl's birthday just now. The song sang right before "Happy Birthday" brought a fresh wave of emotions. I could relate to each and every single line in that song. All the lyrics brought back memories, but that's something I want to forget. And i'm moulding myself, to re-enter this game once more, but stronger this time. I will NOT allow myself to be broken so easily. Those few words really shook the foundation of my life, the very stones that I built my life upon. I gave it my all, but it was never enough.

Enjoyed the dinner @ my aunt's place though. Played with Lauren, and made some wooden puppet spoons! Quite cool, though it indeed took rather long. Then went out for ice cream @ ICC. I totally love the ice cream made on the rocks!!! :D
Release of results tomorrow. With moderation in. And I'm quite curious how my orientation facilitation application will turn out. Hope i can facilitate, but in the light of recent events, maybe not. I'm not sure. So i"ll just cross my fingers and hope for the best!

And i can probably, finally buy my road bike tmrw. That will, I think, be the highlight of tmrw! Maybe i"ll be heading down to the airport as well to pick up stuff. Not sure about that. Hopefully though!




Wonder who will it be, seriously. That person could turn out to be very lucky (or unlucky) haha. depends how you look at it i guess.

Labels: never again

Maybe I was naive, got lost in your eyes, and never really had a chance. My mistake, I didnt know how to be in love. You had to fight to have the upper hand.

I had so many dreams about you and me.

HAPPY ENDINGS, now i knw, are just parts of fairytales. The world is cold and heartless. Merciless in fact. This isn't Hollywood, there are no happy ever after endings. Someday, everything will come to collapse, your world collapses someday. Whether its now, at this stage of our life, or later on when we go through break-ups, or even much later on, following marriage, and the death of one loved one causes so much pain and suffering for the other. I guess I"ll never understand where i went wrong. But enough is enough yeah. Just have to pick myself up, and move on.

What's memories will always remain as memories. Note to self: There are no new memories to be made, so stop wishing. It won't do any help. What I miss now, will never return. I only know that I'm thankful for those happy memories made, and now i just have to forge new ones myself.

Why couldn't I have said everything you wanted to hear? Why Couldn't I have done everything so perfectly that you couldn't ask for anything better? I've always wanted to be that, but i guess even giving it my all was never enough. It was a roller-coaster kinda rush. Yknw, once I thought i was on top of the world, and nothing would knock me off that perch. And woosh, the roller coaster comes plummeting down, just all the way down and I don't know when it's gonna right itself, and continue on its upwards climb again.

Dear God, the only thing I ask of you, is to hold her when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away. Hate the distance now. it's so close, yet so far. I hope i move on fast. It's not simple, I've realized. One thing comforting i guess, is I've friends that have been through this, and their advice has really helped pull me through this. I can't wait for my roller-coaster to start climbing again.

It's been a relief that OP was finally over. After countless dry-runs, it all boiled down to that fateful Monday, where we presented to Ms Giam and some KI ang-moh teacher. I think i did okay, or so i hope. Managed to answer the teacher's question, so I don't think that will be a problem. It's gonna be Daryl's birthday tmr!! (Or actually later today, to be precise). Wonder what i should do for him hmmmm. Results will be released this friday, which i guess i'm eagerly anticipating. Wonder whether there would be any moderation, but i shan't count on it yeah. Overall, I'm quite satisfied with my results, with the exception of Math. But this new Math tutor does seem to be awesome, and oh did i mention, ADAM YEN is in my tuition class now!! uber uber cool. Catching up with him after like a year? Haha it's quite a nice reunion i guess, and I'm slowly making new friends in class (: (: Next year we all would be dying like the current batch of J2s. I pity those taking BCME, if BCMG. Heard bio and chem are always placed like one day after another. Total killer, considering how much mugging goes into bio. Oh well, all the best for those taking this subject combi!!! :/

Listening to songs on my iTunes, and reading through tumblr (special note to blogsecret) just helps me find words to place my delicate situation. And realizing that there are, in fact, so many out there going through similar predicaments as I am, well, it just feels a tinge more comforting.

Night cycling tonight was rather fun. Met Leon around 9pm then cycled for about 2 hours around East Coast. Paced quite a few other cyclists, no particularly fast ones tonight though, so was rather bored. Except one guy, he managed to maintain what, 40km/hr? Crazy guy, me and leon died after trying to catch up for a while.

Hmm...backtrack to Sunday! 8th November. Awesome day, hadn't had something like that in a while. All i remember was the whole day was fully occupied, and Nigel's mum treated me to GV Gold Class!! Watched Michael Jackson's "This is it". It was quite a nice show, talking about the man's career, life and all. I quite enjoyed it, but considering the time of the movie (like around 10pm), me and nigel dozed off towards the end. Haha so much for paying so much for the tickets, whoops! But the seats were damm comfortable luh, and they had like blankets all. With that reclining feature. Who wouldn't sleep right!!!! hahaha. Whoops.

Overseas trip to China was cancelled, cuz of H1N1. But the strange thing is, OCIP is still going to be carried out as usual. Why the double standards? I'm not too sure. Was looking forward to China though! Well on the other hand, now that I can't go China, will probably go up to JB to join some Christian youth camp cum praise-and-worshiP!! My activities for this December will probably be rather packed. Rather exciting prospects, I'm going to try get a job too! Can't wait!!!!!

Labels: Holiday Mood

I gave you my heart, and you broke it. Your words just cut through me, so thinly. Much as i don't want to give up, i guess i really have no choice. This is it then.

I'm not gnna be stupid enough to let myself feel like this again. I've learnt. Now, it's just gnna be looking forward to A's, without any distractions.

Why was chewing gum banned in Singapore?

A Singaporean was on holiday in Malaysia ..He was having his coffee, croissant, bread, butter & jam at the hotel's coffee house.

A Malaysian man who was chewing gum, sat down next to him & started a casual conversation.

Malaysian : "You Singaporeans eat the whole bread?"
Singaporean : "Of course."

Malaysian : "We don't. In Malaysia , we only eat what's inside. The crusts we collect in a container, recycle it, transform them into croissants & sell them across to Singapore ."

The Malaysian then had a smirk on his face while the Singaporean listened in silence.

Malaysian : "Do you eat the jam with the bread?"
Singaporean : "Of course."

Malaysian (chuckling): "We don't. In Malaysia , we eat fresh fruit for breakfast, then we put all the peels, seeds & other left-over in a container, recycle them, transform them into jam, before we sell it across to Singapore ."

This time, the Singaporean retorted : "Do you have sex in Malaysia ?"

Malaysian : "Why, of course we do"
Singaporean : "Do you wear protection"

Malaysian : "Of course! We wear condoms."
Singaporean : "And what do you do with the condoms once you've used them?"

Malaysian : "Stupid question ! Of course we throw them away."

Singaporean : "We don't. In Singapore , the government secretly puts them in a container, recycle them, melt them down into chewing gum & sell them across to Malaysia ,... & that's the real reason why we banned chewing gum in Singapore ."

Labels: why chewing gum was banned in singapore